the secret

I really need to put my thoughts on paper and send them out into the world. I am beginning to feel the shame of ED weighing me down, and I it is beginning to prevent me from engaging socially. Since I was at Tapestry for so long I just thought I had gotten over the whole embarrassment about having an ED, but this is not the case. I still haven't been able to tell my roommates about the disorder or my time in treatment. They will just think that I am crazy. I miss being able to be so open about how I feel, what is going on with me, and most importantly not having this secret. I feel so dishonest, yet too embarrassed to share. Its not like I want to walk around with a tshirt on that says "p.s. I have an eating disorder!" I do realize that only certain people in my life need to know, but having the people that I live with know would be beneficial to my recovery. And the fact that I am shying away from connections with others just proves to me that this is not healthy.

Let me know if you have any comments.

Eating Disorders Anonymous

Eating Disorders Anonymous (EDA) has a new location. It is at the UU Church of Asheville in the Jefferson House on Mondays from 6-7 pm. The address is 27 Edwin Place, Asheville, NC 28801. Call 804-814-0712 for more information. Hope to see some of you there.

Kathy

Again...

A year and a half since leaving Tapestry, I'm heading back to treatment. This time, I've chosen a program closer to home (finances are a factor, so I'm participating in a partial program). This will be my fifth treatment (not including outpatient visits over the course of 6 years). Though my family is still supportive, I must wonder...do I have what it takes to recover?
Fortunately, I've been blessed with a positive attitude. I believe that health and happiness are realistic goals. I'm frustrated, but not hopeless. How do other people maintain motivation? I'd love to hear your thoughts.
Leisel

Freedom

Sometimes I think it just might come down to this...

"Every single last freedom can be taken from a person except the freedom to choose one's attitude." ~ Victor Frankl

"Emancipate yourself from mental slavery. None but ourselves can free our minds." ~ Bob Marley

"Free your mind, the rest will follow." ~ En Vogue

Read Victor Frankl's "Man's Sarch for Meaning" about his experience trying to make sense of being imprisoned in a concentration camp during the Holocaust. His story may help add some perspective to recovery.

Eating Disorders Anonymous

EDA will be meeting at my house this coming week and until I get another location in Asheville. It is on Thursday from 7-8 pm. Call 804-814-0712 for directions.